The wish to build
The desire to create has been with me for as long as I can remember. Even as a student, I was not satisfied with simply learning. I wanted to build something of my own. In school, a classmate and I started experimenting with small inventions. We built automatic flower pods and terrariums, creating sensors out of nails, bottle caps, and scraps of wire. We even tried to capture data with audio signals. None of it became a product, but that was never the point. The point was the excitement of seeing an idea take shape. The simple joy of turning imagination into something real.
That wish to build never disappeared. It grew quieter during my years at university and in corporate life, but it never left me. I knew deep down that happiness for me would not come from following a straight and predictable path. It would come from creating. From taking something that only exists in thought and giving it form.
Seeds of innovation
For years I have carried an innovation diary. Every idea that came to me found a place in its pages. Some were practical, some impossible, some half-formed. I researched, I imagined, I tried to understand what might work and what would not. The diary became a companion, a silent reminder that creation was still part of me. But I never had the courage to take one of those ideas and build it for real.
Looking back, I see that it was not the lack of ideas that held me back. It was the fear of starting. Because starting means risk. It means exposing yourself to failure. It means leaving the safety of what you know. For years I wrote ideas down but never acted on them. Until now.
Finding the courage
Utably is my first true step into entrepreneurship. A platform designed to help people manage their careers and reflect on their own path. It is the product of countless conversations, sketches, and iterations. But more than that, it is the product of courage.
For that, I will always be grateful to my co founders. Alone, I might never have begun. Together, we found the strength to try. There is a lesson in this. The strength to start often comes not from within a single person, but from connection. From the trust that when you fall, someone else will help you stand up. Without them, this step might still only exist in my imagination.
Iteration as a way of life
I thought entrepreneurship would be about big decisions and flawless plans. Instead, I discovered it is about iteration. You start small, you test, you adapt, you rebuild. Over and over. The rhythm is not smooth. Some days you feel unstoppable, others you wonder if you are lost. But each cycle teaches you something. Each mistake carries a message.
I had managed IT projects before. I had worked as a consultant, advising C level decision makers, managing complex streams with many stakeholders. But this is different. Now I am calling the shots. Now I am back in the role of architect, developer, and strategist at the same time. The responsibility is heavier. The uncertainty is greater. And yet the sense of purpose has never been stronger.
The insecurities that follow
There are doubts that come with this path. Questions about success and failure. Questions about opportunity cost. What if this does not work. What if I am chasing something impossible. At times, these thoughts can be overwhelming. And yet alongside them is something else. A clarity that I am exactly where I need to be.
Because in this work I feel something rare. I feel flow. Days merge into weeks. Weeks merge into months. Time blurs, but in the blur more is created than I ever imagined possible. The energy I pour into it comes back multiplied.
Naivety and learning
I can also see how naive I was at the beginning. If I had truly understood what it means to build a product from the ground up, I might never have started. The complexity, the endless decisions, the steepness of the learning curve. It was more than I could have imagined.
And yet now, having taken this step, I cannot go back. I have learned more in this short time than in years of structured work before. I have grown in ways I did not expect. And even if I stumble, the knowledge and the strength gained will stay with me.
The beginning that matters
The first step is the hardest because it is the one that breaks inertia. It is the one that transforms thought into reality. It is the one that separates dreaming from doing. He who never starts can never succeed.
I am only at the beginning. The path ahead is uncertain. But even in uncertainty, I feel grateful. Grateful for the journey, grateful for the lessons, and grateful for the chance to try. Because in the end, it is not about guarantees. It is about giving yourself the chance to create.
And that chance begins with the first step.